Song Review: “Rx”- Theory of a Deadman

This is going to explain some thoughts on a song,*cough, cough* (it’s in the title if you didn’t notice).

I like this song.  I’ve been a fan of the band ever since they became big back in the day.  I think in 2007 is when they made their big break.  (eh, 2008 with “Bad Girlfriend” I looked it up :P)

 that’s the album cover (Scars & Souvenirs) which features the song

I looked up the lyrics for “Rx” on Genius and there’s a quote from lead singer Tyler Connolly who tells Billboard the motivations (prescription drug addiction) about the song on Genius’ website.

“I really wanted to discuss how messed up America is with this prescription drug thing. When I got divorced, I went and saw a therapist and the first thing she said was, ‘I want to put you on some Beta blockers or some sort of anti-depressant stuff’ and I’m like, ‘No! No Way! What? How is that the first thing you want to do?’ I just feel like something’s wrong and I felt like the song needed to be written and people needed to hear it. It seems like every week something terrible is happening. I mean, Chris Cornell…and when we shot the video for it all these directors we talked to were like, ‘Oh yeah, I had a huge prescription drug problem, so this hits home’ and all that stuff. So it’s a really important song and I’m so happy we get to release it first.”

I appreciated the song.  I’ve never done drugs personally but the lyrics feel pretty real.  Just the way the person in the song is affected and the whole “the world is against me” vibe was kind of relatable.  I get bored and depressed (we all have at some point, right?) so I can understand why most people want to reach for the pills to make themselves feel better.  I guess it’s more of a clinical depression though that this song is talking about.  That’s the one I relate more with and I think that’s why I like it.  Go give it a listen. 🙂

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United States: White Privilege and Fear of White Genocide

JUST A QUICK HEADS UP: This is a controversial topic, with only my opinions and some thoughts on my mind from my experience as a white guy from a rural small town (I’ll bring this up later as well)  in the Southeastern U.S. that I expanded upon.  This post may contain potentially offensive content to some so use discretion when deciding to read this post, I mean, just look at the title.  I am putting in my demographic to help provide context for where these thoughts are coming from to those who may be oblivious to these experiences and think of them being invalid to prove it is a very much real way of thinking.  I apologize if my thoughts are not eloquently presented.  I have trouble presenting what I know correctly sometimes and there may be gaps or jumps in thought.  So without further ado, let’s dive in.

Race and white privilege and white genocide are all interlocking themes common in the United States. Progress has been made but even after all these years, race continues to divide and cause wedges in the goals of unity, which let’s face it, are not going to happen anytime soon but nevertheless, I am going to proceed with my thoughts about race, and fyi I am a white male with white privilege, not as much as other white people, but of course I still have some because I am white which will be the case probably for the rest of my life.  So here are my thoughts on the issue, being more on the moral and coincidently? the liberal side point, I oppose the conservative views on race from the conservative background I was raised in.

I was inspired to write this post after watching a video shared by one of my Facebook friends.  It was a TED talk involving a black man who went undercover into the Alt-Right.  So here is the link to that.  It wasn’t the specific topic in the video itself that enacted me to start writing but one of the things the speaker said that sparked some of my related thoughts and wouldn’t let me focus completely throughout the video even though I did watch it.

The video sparked my thoughts on how people who aren’t directly involved with conservative views about race may get them to think they are nonexistent. Unfortunately they are, and are not going away anytime soon.  I have had these thoughts before as well.  The thoughts of white genocide.  The fear of losing what at the time was what I thought to be my lasting hope for prosperity.

Being taught that white people were superior at a young age combined with the awareness of being poor and underprivileged, I was glad that I would have one ace in the hole,  being a part of this superior group of people.  This made me feel better about my circumstances of coming from an underprivileged background at a time when I wasn’t as opened to the world as I have grown to become and gave me a sort of “all hope is not lost” kind of feeling.  A false substitute I was taught to have to avoid accepting that I was on the bottom of the socio-economic totem pole.  Because despite being at the bottom in that regard, I knew that I would be treated better because, at the time, my thinking from what I was taught was, “hey, I’m poor but at least I’m not poor like those ‘ghetto’ people who will never get ahead because they are doomed to never do so.”

The “whites against the world” ideology as everyone else sees it to  white people looks more like “the world against the whites” to white people who still hold racist viewpoints and is the cause for racism’s stay.  This helps to form a type of “white guilt”  where white people think they are not racist but in reality are indeed passively racist by ingnoring their subliminally racist tendencies.  They think, and myself as well in times past and this is all coming from my experience from what I have seen and grown up with in my rural small town in the South, that everyone is out to get them for payback for how racist white people were back in the day.  This leads to ideas of “reverse-racism” and leads to more racism from white people through this guise as a retaliation on that.  This makes white people have a unnecessary fear of being with other races because they think that the other groups won’t accept them because they think these groups are out working to take “power and control” away from white people and dominate them like white people have done since this country’s creation.

Something that really sticks out to me of recent times is the phrase which goes something like “equality seems like oppression when you are used to privilege.”  This is part of the fear white people have, because some, like I was, are still taught that white people are superior because of their race.  With equality becoming more common, white people have these thoughts that they are going to be reduced to nothing (losing a little power and control means elimination, I guess) because they have to give up a little something, exactly how the phrase describes it.  And my white friends from back home who haven’t been changed by their environment and expanded their views outside of their small community to be more open minded, see this as other races complaining because they want more.  Well, they do deserve more, because what they have still isn’t equal to what white people have.

White people still have the power in this country.  I mean, yeah, white people started it.  So that’s one reason they will be around for a while with so much control.  The typical “American” is seen as being a white guy.  But that is a little outdated imo.  Now, if you live, breath, work, sweat, and bleed in and for this country, you are a United states citizen by my standards, even if you don’t have the paperwork to prove it yet.  A white person is longer a typical US citizen.  This country has become more than that.  This country is made up of many different people and they deserve to be recognized to.  Just because white people had the idea to make this country doesn’t mean we shouldn’t recognize the work other races and groups of people have put  in to making and serving this country.  The differences make this country great.  Having different people from different races, groups, and cultures keep this country great.

White people are afraid because like the video says, they have outdated and wrong information. Perhaps it’s a fear of losing “white culture” which might just actually be white privilege, which I would say is a part of it. When I have my friends from different backgrounds describe their culture, I have difficulty describing white culture to them.  I can’t think of what it is and the only thing that really comes to mind is few things and white privilege itself being somewhat incorporated into it.  And I think that white culture is almost nonexistent.  I can’t really think of too many individual customary traits that relate to white culture.  I’m no expert on it so I could probably find something if I did more research into it but I’m not into the extra work so I’m drawing this info from myself.

When I think of white culture all I can think of is hippies, rednecks, and that typical patriotic “red, white, and blue” vibe.  So I guess that counts because I don’t really see black hippies or rednecks and it’s just what I picture maybe because of my background, it may be different for a black person or other ethnic/racial groups growing up, but whenever I think of a typical patriot, I picture a white guy in red, white, and blue attire of some sort.  That’s just how it’s always been depicted to me through media as I’ve grown up.

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There may be some things that need more elaboration so I will probably edit this when/if I come back to it.  This is typical with heavy topics like this.  I hope none of what I say offends my audience but each person’s experience is different and we all process things differently and this is how I am processing this topic.  I could make a more neutral article but since this is my blog, it’s kind of all about me and my thought process and experience, which is always changing and adapting.  In  terms of what I wrote earlier in the post about getting ahead because of my race, I realize this may still be true that I may get a head start on some things because of my race but I realized a while ago that I no longer need to rely on this and will ensure that equal opportunity is given to everyone and I plan to call those out who advance me or treat me different because I am white.

So I think this is everything.  Just remember respect and to treat others with kindness, because we are all people and no one person is better than another and we all deserve equal opportunities and a good experience in this world.  Once you realize that putting energy into putting down anyone is a waste of time and in hurting them you are also hurting yourself because revenge is a 2 edged sword.  Make the world better than you found it.  Make sure to think of others before yourself because we may see the world as being all about us but it’s really all about each other.  We got to work as a whole to make it better. Everyone needs to serve their individual part and although it seems your work is just for you, it’s really for the whole, because we are all connected.  When you hurt another person, you’re not just hurting that person, you’re hurting yourself and the whole.  So keep good intentions: be good and do good. Have peace, love, and respect for each other, because in the end, it’s all going to be okay if we keep these things in mind.

 

He got a bionic arm fr fr

Please watch this video, or at least skip through, to get an idea of what inspired this post.

If you don’t feel like watching the vid, it’s about another person who has gained the once unattainable—a robot arm, like the kind they use in Star Wars and other sci-fi related fantasy stuff.

What really triggered me about this post was not the technological advancement, because I’ve seen it before, I already knew the actual integration of man and machine would happen.  I am more concerned with the mental aspects of a procedure like this.

The man in this video appears to be doing fine but my concern is how exactly does he do after taking the mechanical limb off once he is done using it for the research purposes?  It’s definitely tough and takes time to adapt to living life without one of your limbs but you get used to it.  However, what  if you can magically bring it back and have the feelings and sensations and use of the lost limb yet again?

How is his human psyche adapting to the periods of when he has the limb back and when it’s taken away again?  I’m sure his brain has adjusted his body to the attaching and removing of the arm, but what about the completeness that might be lacking due to the man seeing his “arm” back and then “disappearing” again in these short periods of time?  I have the same question about other people with prosthetic limbs can relate and there is probably some research  into the psychological repercussions of prosthetics but the difference here is that the mechanical ones connect to the body and the brain.  So wouldn’t taking off a prosthetic such as this be equivalent to removing an actual limb over and over again? Of course, this would be without the pain aspect I assume but may perhaps leave a psychological pain in the times the user is not using it and the user would have to micro-adapt to not using it (I say micro-adapt because the user will eventually get to put the limb back onto their body).

I don’t know if they do this already for those with non-neural prosthetics but I assume they do (I’m thinking they do such as psych evals for veterans with PTSD who also lost a limb that may contribute to their PTSD but not entirely restricted to this example), there should be a group of psychologists (if not already) who specialize for this future med-tech advancement.  Just looking ahead since this tech has been desired for a long time,  I would assume that scientists have considered this but one can never be certain and also because I haven’t researched it that much as of yet.

I will more than likely produce an edit to this post if I find any more info on the subject or I get around to doing more research.  It’s just a thought that occurred to me as I was looking beyond the happy-go-lucky vibe of the video.  The video triggered my thoughts about the real world implications if the tech was released to the entire public and at this point, it seems things are moving well. I just hope they hurry up and put an appropriate arm looking exterior because it looked weird seeing that mechanical arm move.  It looked like a skeleton almost and before I make another post and going to leave it at this—mechanical arm prosthetic aesthetics. 😎

It’s Rough Out Here, Fam

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A picture to encapsulate the feeling of this post, copyright free of course from https://stocksnap.io

You try to do your best but sometimes you are limited. Well, I’m tired of being limited.  I’m getting out of here for real.  It’s bad right now but there’s no way I’m letting it get worse.  Optimism is best.   Being pessimistic about everything gets you no where.

I’m always complaining about what’s going on in my life.  I always tell myself that the hand I’ve been dealt sucks, pure and simple. And it does.  Ever since I was young, there was nothing that I would consider normal about what I’ve experienced.

All of my peers, I say peers because I’m not quite sure I can really call them friends,  have had way more experiences and opportunity than I have.  I always thought they were on another level from me and that I was supposed to be on that level too.  But I wasn’t.  I’ve always been behind in some way.

But then I tell myself, along with that, that I’m not going to sit around and get passed over by these messed up turn of events.

(THIS IS A DRAFT I WAS WORKING ON A YEAR AGO THAT I FORGOT ABOUT BUT YEAH DOING GREAT NOW,  DID A LOT OF INTERNAL SOUL SEARCHING, MET NEW PEOPLE WHO HELPED TO PUT A NEW PERSPECTIVE ON THINGS, figured I’d go ahead and post it since I took the time to write it up)

So yeah, we all move at our own pace.  No one is better than anyone else.  We all just exist making different choices with our world and life path we are given.  I would say just keep good vibes flowing and everything will work out. 🙂

Opinion about Abortion in the U.S.

Well, here I go.

Seeing the title of this post, be weary of the language used and do not be put off by anything that I write.  This is indeed one of my more serious posts with my ideas that I am going to share.  This may not be my final thoughts about the topic but it was something I was thinking about yesterday and I find it to have some fairly solid  grounding.

I want to start off with a notice that I will divert into rape for a bit because these two topics have intertwined before.  I would also like to make a disclaimer that I do not have personal experience with this topic and these are my thoughts as an observer and outside party hearing about the topic from different sources.

Okay, now that that is out of the way. Let us move forward into the topic.

Abortion is a tricky topic I can’t even lie and say it’s not.  Trying to write about it is tricky because every word I use as an outside party can probably be twisted but I welcome it, and welcome any opposition to anything that is written in this post.  I like discussion and although most of my discussions are in my own head with myself, I find that it is important to have an outside party to guide my thinking sometimes so that I can see the topic from a different perspective.  As you probably don’t know, just by someone giving me a different perspective on a topic can sometimes immediately change where I stand on an issue.

So now let’s really continue.

Usually, there are two options when thinking about abortion—pro choice or pro life.  Pro choice meaning that it is a woman’s complete choice to choose whether or not she gets an abortion and  this does not mean that someone who is pro choice is for abortion.  Pro life, however, is generally the stance that a woman should never get an abortion.**

Now here is the finding that I came to yesterday.  I think that choice is very important in everyday life.  We are all given the free will to make any choice we decide.  In this regard, I would say that I am pro-choice.  It is important that we all have the opportunity to make our own choices.

Where I come to be against the pro choice philosophy is that when a being is being formed inside of a woman it is her natural job as a human being to nurture that forming being and devote her life to this task, this is regardless of the circumstances that brought about this being either through consensual intercourse or sadly even rape.  This is because I believe every human being should be able to make their own choice regarding their life.

When a being is being formed in the womb, they are alive, they are living, and they do indeed have a life.  Life is sacred.  Although it may not appear that that being inside the womb is an alive human being, it is.  While being in the womb, it is living and in the process of becoming a fully functioning human being.  That being will have the potential to make rational decisions one day. It has the potential to become a man or a woman with thoughts, desires, and feelings.

Is it just to deny a human being their right before they are even made aware of it or given the opportunity to make a decision on their own life?  When a woman carries a child in her womb, she must put aside her own feelings and focus on making sure that child is able to fully develop into a thinking human being.  She still has her body, and what she does with her body is definitely her own right, but the issue comes when she starts to impede on the life of the child.

As long as that child is in her womb, growing and developing, she must take care to put all her effort into supporting that life. The child in her womb is two parts that came together to make an entirely new part.  A separate entity with its own rights.  As part of the nature of life, part of the woman’s body has been rented out to that new life that is growing inside of her.  The woman’s body is now a vessel for life.  It truly is a beautiful thing.

Back to the pro choice terminology, a person does not get to choose whether or not to end a life.  Choosing to end a life is never and option.  Rather, they can decide to end a life and with that, face the repercussions that come with ending a life.

All in all, I’m all for a person having the right to make decisions but when those decisions affect the life of a helpless life, I cannot say that is something I support.  A person can do whatever they want, just as long as it doesn’t affect another person’s right to live because no one should have the right to decide the fate of their life except them and them alone.

It’s not all about “it’s my body, I can do what I want with it.” It’s about the fact that ending a life should never be a choice that another person makes for someone else.

There are other factors that play into this obviously and different people make different decisions based on their perspective.  Just remember to try and listen to what other people have to say because that life that never had the chance to happen could have made some really good choices or really bad choices.  What really matters is that they had the opportunity to make choices because that was their right.

So if you really are pro-choice, make sure there really is a choice to make.

–EDIT–

Here I go again:

1 year later (original posting was in 2016, time is now 2017) of not looking at this nor it passing my mind until today, I must also add this is looked at through the lens of a person (me) with Christian viewpoints in mind which have also influenced this thinking.  Along those same lines, this post was mainly brought about through the arguments that typical(?) conservative Christians have on abortion.  And like I said, these were not my final viewpoints on the subject.  Since viewing this post again and rereading it, I realized there were some things that didn’t cross my mind at the original time of writing that now have me scratching my head.

**One point was were I talked about what pro-choice and pro-life meant. To clarify, I looked at this website. It explains what is meant by these titles in a wider view.  It mainly delves into some views and actions of conservatives on the topic.  The author says “being anti-abortion doesn’t necessarily mean being pro-life” and then goes into what seems to be the pro-life values.  Just wanted to add this in which I hope helps to cover more bases.

So this led me to reconsider, what would this viewpoint I have being discussed in this post be? It seems at this point I was pro-choice but was reluctant about abortion.  But now in the past year, I have been swayed to being okay with those who choose to get an abortion.  It relates to my religious views about punishment for actions.  This is where my own religious views and morals play in to this.

Every action is granted to us in free will from our highest being in most certain circumstances and this being has the final judgement in the end supposedly.  So yes, I’m taking it there, who are we as people to be that judge about life?  When that being is in the carrier’s body, it is not yet developed and as I said before, should have a right to life, but now I would like to point out that as much as I would prefer that being to develop into a person, it also it is up to the carrier since their life is being put at stake by raising this being.  What I’m getting at is that the life which has yet to develop a self and essentially a soul is fragile at this point with a blank slate.  To put an appropriate end to them before they develop a brain and movement and such  I believe is more humane than leading the carrier to do an unsafe means of performing an abortion possibly too late. And it’s that carrier’s decision to make entirely.  Different circumstances play a role that those on the outside may not see.  A safe abortion provides an appropriate alternative to that specific situation.

To those who worry about the ethical practicalities citing religious reasons, they need to realize this is the carrier’s decision to make with our higher being which is the only other being who fully understands what’s going on. And in the end forgiveness and mercy are always given, because as humans, we can’t always make the right decision and account for every little thing.  Even though we may try we can be wrong sometimes.  It’s human error.

On a more straight up moralistic outlook, having a choice also just makes sense, since the only life being affected is the carrier’s (since the zygote cannot feel or sense anything being just another type of human cell at this point). It’s unrelated to anyone else and as a society of people we should make sure that we do what we can to help make sure it goes as safely as possible to assure that the carrier’s life is protected. As sex, creating life and reproduction are acts of human nature, we as a whole society should take this into consideration and make sure everyone  get’s their entitlement to free will, seeing as the opposing parties (essentially males in this case) could practically just move on.  We need to make accountability equal.  Sometimes it’s a decision between just the carrier, the two parties who started the process of the forming cell, and when there is no other party due to fleeing, society needs to help ensure the carrier is afforded the same rights and obligations to protect her life which is the difference in consequences of participating in sexual activity.

Just as a society in the case of rape, we take action to protect women’s rights by going after the man who did her wrong since his body has no biological consequences except the psychological guilt of committing a crime.  Of course a man could get raped and then if the woman took his sperm and became pregnant, then society would need to go after her to abort the zygote ( I don’t have information on this but if we’re talking equality, seems like the right method but not sure if the law actually says this).

Now at this point, I would say that the life potential is still really important but my overarching argument against my past points is that the carrier’s rights cannot be overshadowed by the potential of life to form.  We know how life forms, we know mistakes or rapes happen as a society when considering sexual activity, so how can half(?) of our society argue against what would be the most logical thing to do?

I would classify abortion as a safe method of a type of euthanization for a life potential (a zygote).   It is an issue of our desire to be true to our dated (and sort of twisted by those in power) religious views that condemn unmarried sexual activity and leading to a type of ignorance of sexual activity and how to appropriately deal with the after.  Those arguing against abortion and for the potential life of the zygote (if it makes it to birth and the carrier not having complications while birthing and the life potential not having complications after birth) then do not really offer help to the carrier but put all their efforts into banning abortion when there is no real say for them in the mix.  They’re parading but not helping solve anything.  This part of society is making a decision together about what another life should do, effectively trying to take away that free will that they are supposed to believe in.

Pro-life is a terribly misguided movement driven by political misinformation. Ironically, they are pro-life for a life that hasn’t even formed but not really for the carrier.  Perhaps this is there way of making an ethical punishment since a most women who get abortions are not married and by letting them go about as they may with no appropriate access to appropriate help services?  I am pro-choice being for free will and choice of the carrier.  I am pro-life when I am for the carrier’s life and now not so much for the life potential.   I still agree that the life potential should have a chance to live but the carrier’s life comes first now in this case and if the carrier still chooses to help develop the zygote from a cell into a being, then I think that is definitely commendable.

Hopefully this helps clarify any confusion and my current viewpoints on the issue which continually change as I grow and meet new people and become EDUCATED, something that parts of our society lacks. ( I am leaving the first part just to show how much my views have changed and how others might see the topic right off the bat.) So that’s about it for this post I think but I may come back to it.  \_(ツ)_/ 

 

 

 

Freedom

A part of my nonsense chronicles that I write just to write. They aren’t supposed to make sense so don’t interpret them literally. Grammar may not be correct either since this was scribbled down and I’m copying it to here.

You cannot see me but I do indeed see you. For what I see are the dreams in which you possess. Now possessions are not something to brag about. they are as unimportant as the fictions that surrounds us all. For we all cannot be at the top. If we were then what would be the point of classifications? Hmm?  Exactly my point. So by taking the time to draw out that negative energy, we can all focus on bettering ourselves and the world we live in.  Bask in the glory of the day that you are given.  Feel it. Let it surround you. Let it engulf you. That breeze that blows, is it really real?  All things are manufactured.  The air we feel-artificial. The things we wear, see, touch-none of them can be relevant to our lives.  We must let them all go to be free. To be free form the conventions of this world. Explore.  Set your mind free. Let go of these physical barriers. Transcend to the next level. No, go beyond that. Don’t measure yourself. Not by levels or anything.  Circumstantiate the ideals of this world no longer.  They are not real and you must let this illusion go.  Set forth and be harbingers of reason. Reason with others how they can be changed too. Show them the new way. The way of mental freedom. No more constraints of thought.  Let all that you experience bleed over into this world so that it may be washed out anew.  There is nothing wrong with new. New is exciting and people like new. The unexperience, the switch, the unfamiliar, the change, the new are all the same.  Forget what you’ve been told. Neglect it all. Get out of your brainwashed mind and have the will to step outside of borders to never be limited ever again.