This idea came about as I was doing research for an artist paper. The term avant garde came up. Just like it, I feel as if i am unorthodox to society’s constructs so I may be interested in claiming that as my artistic style to truly reflect what I feel is my position to society.
The avant-garde are people or works that are experimental, radical, or unorthodox with respect to art, culture, or society. Wikipedia
You try to do your best but sometimes you are limited. Well, I’m tired of being limited. I’m getting out of here for real. It’s bad right now but there’s no way I’m letting it get worse. Optimism is best. Being pessimistic about everything gets you no where.
I’m always complaining about what’s going on in my life. I always tell myself that the hand I’ve been dealt sucks, pure and simple. And it does. Ever since I was young, there was nothing that I would consider normal about what I’ve experienced.
All of my peers, I say peers because I’m not quite sure I can really call them friends, have had way more experiences and opportunity than I have. I always thought they were on another level from me and that I was supposed to be on that level too. But I wasn’t. I’ve always been behind in some way.
But then I tell myself, along with that, that I’m not going to sit around and get passed over by these messed up turn of events.
(THIS IS A DRAFT I WAS WORKING ON A YEAR AGO THAT I FORGOT ABOUT BUT YEAH DOING GREAT NOW, DID A LOT OF INTERNAL SOUL SEARCHING, MET NEW PEOPLE WHO HELPED TO PUT A NEW PERSPECTIVE ON THINGS, figured I’d go ahead and post it since I took the time to write it up)
So yeah, we all move at our own pace. No one is better than anyone else. We all just exist making different choices with our world and life path we are given. I would say just keep good vibes flowing and everything will work out. 🙂
A part of my nonsense chronicles that I write just to write. They aren’t supposed to make sense so don’t interpret them literally. Grammar may not be correct either since this was scribbled down and I’m copying it to here.
You cannot see me but I do indeed see you. For what I see are the dreams in which you possess. Now possessions are not something to brag about. they are as unimportant as the fictions that surrounds us all. For we all cannot be at the top. If we were then what would be the point of classifications? Hmm? Exactly my point. So by taking the time to draw out that negative energy, we can all focus on bettering ourselves and the world we live in. Bask in the glory of the day that you are given. Feel it. Let it surround you. Let it engulf you. That breeze that blows, is it really real? All things are manufactured. The air we feel-artificial. The things we wear, see, touch-none of them can be relevant to our lives. We must let them all go to be free. To be free form the conventions of this world. Explore. Set your mind free. Let go of these physical barriers. Transcend to the next level. No, go beyond that. Don’t measure yourself. Not by levels or anything. Circumstantiate the ideals of this world no longer. They are not real and you must let this illusion go. Set forth and be harbingers of reason. Reason with others how they can be changed too. Show them the new way. The way of mental freedom. No more constraints of thought. Let all that you experience bleed over into this world so that it may be washed out anew. There is nothing wrong with new. New is exciting and people like new. The unexperience, the switch, the unfamiliar, the change, the new are all the same. Forget what you’ve been told. Neglect it all. Get out of your brainwashed mind and have the will to step outside of borders to never be limited ever again.